Stop me if this has happened to you. You’ve been writing a story for what feels like an eternity. It’s been months upon months of slaving over what ever medium of writing has been your go to. Now, you’ve finished writing and you look over your work, rather perplexed. This is not the story you’ve written. That is what I’m going through right now. I’m over half way through me novel, and I decided to reread what I had worked so tirelessly on. The plot seemed to be different from what I had thought of in the first place.
I’m struggling with whether this is a good thing or not. A part of me, is oddly ok with this feeling. I heard a quote from an Uber driver a few days ago. “Anyone can write a story, a true writer is willing and able to rewrite.” This quote really changed my perspective in my writing. The idea of making a second draft makes me a bit anxious, but I know is essential. The feeling I have now, helps me feel more at ease at the idea of editing the work. Yes, this difference in what I have written and the story I had in my head is nerve- wracking, but it makes the concept of change less overwhelming.
Even with that mindset, I still feel nervous about how different the story is becoming. What I’m afraid of is the lack of consistency and continuity. The fact that I can stray so far from what my original plan was is something that makes me very nervous. I try to stay positive, naturally, but it can be very difficult.
This is just another step in the journey to make my novel a reality. It’s just a thought that I wanted to share.